I’ve been on the verge of tears for a week now. Why? Because it’s graduation time.

Skyler & Spencer’s graduated from preschool tonight. I just cannot believe they are graduating from preschool and moving on to kindergarten. Where did the time go?

I remember [vividly] the day I found out I was pregnant with them. [Although at the time I thought I was having just one baby.] It was more than six years ago. The first week in February. Were trying to get pregnant and I was getting frustrated because it didn’t happen on the first try. My period wasn’t even late yet, but I was already nauseous and I was sure I was pregnant. So I went to the doctor and had a blood test. I couldn’t get the test results back until after 2pm though. So I anxiously waited until 2:04 [I didn't want to seem to eager]. But the results were negative. I was devasted. I cried. Lee tried to reassure me. He said “you aren’t even late yet.” I couldn’t believe that we had been trying for three months and I still wasn’t pregnant. We didn’t try at all with Keaton. But then….four days later I was actually expecting my period. But it didn’t come. So I did a home pregnancy test. And there was a line. Very faint, but a line nontheless. So I had another blood test. And waiting [again] until after 2pm. But this time….it was positive. I remember the excitement I felt. I was so happy. I was only one month pregnant but I told everybody. I just could not keep it to myself. I didn’t even care about the vomiting and not being able to eat part. I was just happy to be pregnant again.

A month after that [the first week in March] after many, many days of vomiting and being able to eat only popsicles and drink lemonade, I had my very first ultrasound. We were having the ultrasound to see if maybe there was more then one baby in there, but none of us ever really thought there would be more than one. It was still early in my pregnancy so it was a trans-vaginal ultrasound [don't ask, cause I promise you dont' want to know]. The ultrasound tech said [and I remember this word for word], “Here’s why you’ve been so sick. You have two babies in there.” I swear Lee stopped breathing for a second. I, on the other hand, didn’t need that info to sink in. I was thrilled.

And now they’ve grown from two small dots on the monitor in the doctor’s office to smart preschool graduates. Watching them grow in to their own personalities has been amazing. Although I wish time would slow down, I can’t wait to celebrate more milestones with them.

But Skyler & Spencer aren’t the only ones celebrating milestones. This year also marks the year that Keaton moves from elementary school to middle school. Middle School? MIDDLE SCHOOL! Next Tuesday we will all hold back tears at Keaton’s 5th grade promotions ceremony. How can my baby be in middle school? I can still remember holding him in my arms. Now I’m lucky if I can get him to hug me.

I found out I was pregnant with Keaton from the fine people at Planned Parenthood. It was a complete shock to me. I was too young and Lee and I were not yet married. But feeling Keaton move inside me and watching my tummy grow as the months went on made me realize that none of that mattered. God knew I was ready for this little surprise. Keaton was the best inutero baby. My pregnancy with Keaton was a peice of cake. No morning sickness. No cramping. And a fast labor. And when Keaton entered the world, he was just as calm and laid back. He really has been a super kid right from the very beginning. And I am so proud of everything he has accomplished.

When I graduated from high school [not that many years ago :)], my baby brother was five years old. He hadn’t even started school yet. My sister was still in diapers at only one and a half. This year my brother graduates from high school. His big ceremony is on June 12th. And I am devasted that I will not be able to watch him accept his diploma. [I will be in London.] I was looking through some old pictures from high school last week. And I found pictures of my brother, sister and me. They were so little. They were younger than Skyler & Spencer are now. And they had chubby cheeks and big ‘ole diaper butts. Now my sister is taller than me. Two years ago…TWO YEARS AGO WHEN SHE WAS 11…she gave me a pair of her shoes that were too small. They were size 10. SIZE 10. My brother is equally as tall, probably taller. He has a job. A real job in a grocery store. He also owns a couple of guitars and loves to “jam” [do they still call it that?!?] with his friends. Next year he will go off to college to pursue a career in gaming; creating PS2, Xbox and whatnot games.

When I was little all I wanted to do was grow up and be “responsible.” Now I’m grown up and “responsible,” but all I want to do is be a kid again. As a child I thought I would live forever, but now I see our mortality. I want to hold on to every memory. I want to cherish every hug. I want to memorize every kiss. I want time to slow down so I can still cuddle with my babies before they start to demand their independence. I’m so happy I get to experience these moments with my family. I’m just sad that they fly by in a second.